Laurens Poem

So this is just a poem what i wrote for a close friend of mine.She asked that I write something for her about her life and how she deals with things... i of course said yes. shes pretty much my sister and i love her to death .. Lauren Lyn my lovely Jammy this is for you

I walk Down the street
My bare feet in the gutter
letting the rain caress me
and the breeze,
it makes me shudder

The sky is full of stars
brilliantly bright after the storm
painting pictures in my head
within poetry i am reborn

i hum the tunes and rythms
my life here on this page
distant , tired and confused
Ive left ME on the stage

I fil my head with silence
and focus on the sky
for months now ive been curious
asking when how and why

those close to me have faded
just mere whispers of importance
as my fingers dance the tango
on the keyboard of ignorance

beauty will behold the glory
as my feet drip dry the rain
the tingling will envelope me
ill forget all of my pain

this creates a poem of tears
that are born from the coulds
it writes stories and songs
that reveal the truth beneath this shroud

tonight i break
free of all thought
to get back to myself
discover whats been lost
life can be hard
and days can be long
nothing that cant be fixed
with the perfect dance
to the perfect song...



Feel better hun
xoxox shay

Losers!!!

So its been literally a million years since ive wrote about something.... not like posting a song!! xD Thought i would talk about something i rant about on a daily basis...



LOSERS!!
In my life there are SOO MANY.. including myself of course... but today im ony going to rant on about 4.... to start it off...

Ryan Buckspan..
If the name doesnt get you.... the facts leading up to the loser deff will have you believing... For each person i willl give 5-10 reasons as to WHY THEY ARE LOSERS! :D

1) He Fell off the cliff in grade 9 (ruining the geo trip forever)
2) He knows EVERYTHING
3) He has absolutely NO friends
4) Hes a teachers pet
5) He feels the need to tell you everything he knows
6) He wears those loser glasses xD
7) He is THE MOST annoying thing ever born.!

k so honestly he just fits that typical nerdy losr picture... im just done with him.

secodly...

Helen Ho :)
although she is my hoe.... she is a HUGE loser

1) she dressed as pikachu....
2) she NEVER stops studying for chem.. ( shes still failing)
3) Shes shorter than me... and still believes she can play anything other than Point in Bball xD
4)she expects me to go to azn karaoke?
5) she can be bribed with sexual acts;)
6) SHE NEVER PICKS UP HER PHONE
7) She texts at the most random times AKA when im sleeping
8) She is the world biggest fob...
9) her name is helen ho.... hahaha ho
and finally 10) shes dating a dead man xD John Lennon


AND MY LOSER
Spence is the worlds biggest loser !!!!
she is.... man... i cant even :P

1) shes always doing homework ALWAYS
2) she goes to book clubs? xD
3) She thinks that my -_- face is the funniest thing.
4) She is unde the belief that I am Leprichaun ( I AM NOT)
5) She often argues really stupid things.. ( stupid cuz i always win :D)
6) She is easily distracted (or maybe its just me)
7) Shes a total renthead ( but that makes me a loser too)
8) She doesnt like Peanut butter (who the hell doesnt)
9) SHE THINKS PICKLES ARE DISGUSTING!!!!
AND FINALLY
10) She loves me..... thats gotta make you a HUGE loser


So weve gone over typical nerd, short azn and just in love loser... who tops them all?
THAT WOULD BE ME!!

I am the biggest loser and I dont even try :S
Not only am i going to name 10 things... im going to name 20 reasons because I am DOUBLE the loser than these others losers
1) I constantly fall up stairs
2) I never sleep when i should
3) I tend to slack ALOT
4) I fall WAY TOO HARD
5) Im used to being heart broken ( uber loserish)
6) I LOVE TO READ (BAHAHAAHAHAH)
7) I spend more time in a dance/ dancing than i do in m y own home or sleeping
8) I can lick both my chin and my nose
9) Im addicted to texting
10) I love to watch sad movies that make me cry
11) I constantly make weird faces
12) I eat too much candy and get sick... very often
13) I like scaring children. but cry at the sight of a clown
14) I pass out at random times in random places
15) I turn to ice cream when im depressed( seriously)
16) I never do school work.
17) I am the laziest person you will EVER meet
18) I constantly call others LOSERS
19) I Can sing..EVERY SINGLE Hannah Montana, Highschool Musical AND Spice Girls song.. Of heart.

20) I Hate to Love A TOTAL LOSER MENTIONED IN THIS NOTE!! We are constantly argueing over who is a loser.... Clearly we both are because we both made this list and hopefully she realizes that!!! We will nver settle this however i do believe that she is a bigger loser because I CAN ADMIT that i am a loser where as she cannot :P

Dont know when my next blog shall be but. hopefully it will be better :D


xoxo shay.

NATIONALS!!!

So i realize it has been WAY TOO LONG since ive actually blogged about something not pointless.... well im going to continue that streak of pointless blogs.

Today is Dance Nationals.( i did write a little thing about dance though)

WHAT IS DANCE?
Dance is the world you create,
it is inspiring those around you,
and being inspired by them.
It is different to everybody
and that is the beauty of it.
It is the language in which we express our emotions
and can only be shown through the movements of our soul.
It is something you can always turn to,
to channel into a different direction and feel good.
Its about putting on a song and getting goosebumps,
you feel your heart beat and your body start to shake
you step onto that stage, close your eyes
and so it begins..... thats dance
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So nationals.... i leave this sunday and im gone for 5 days!!!!! FIVE FREAKING DAYS!! no texting, no internet, no late nights , NO JUNK FOOD! I dont think im going to survive. :( im going to miss friends way too much..... im going to go insane rooming with DADDYS LITTLE GIRLS...!!!! gosh give me a damn shot gun so i can help the world and get rid of them.

So routines and songs for them

Senior Jazz Number
Cell Block Tango- Chicago

Senior Contemporary Number
Sentimental- Mike Simpson

Open Class Number
The Force( dunno the artist)

Open Class Number
Grease- Compilation of songs from Grease

Open Class Number
BXS- Compilation of Brittney spears songs

Senior Solo
A Drop In The Ocean- Ron Pope.

Each im hoping are going to ge really well. But i have to thank Derick Robinson for the idea of A Drop In The Ocean. Its an absolutely beautiful song.. so I dont wanna go to nationals even after all my hard work. But I guess you just have to put up with it and just deal...



xoxo Shay <3<3<3

PRIDE PROM

PRIDE PROM 2010 AMAZING NIGHT..

 

xoxo shay

New Weekend Playlist

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So it was an alright week. Both of my loves placed well at Centrals.. "clearly luck of the irish :P"..
I do however feel this tug at my insides because I know deep down that I would've too :( Oh well I guess you've got to bite your tongue and move on.


So this weekends playlist

Most definately an odd mix, its been quite a rollercoaster of a week so the songs reflect each emotion.

1. Ultimate Fuck Song- Moby

2. You`re Not Sorry - Taylor Swift

3. Romping Shop - Vybez Cartel

4. Airplanes- B.O.B

5. Teeth- Lady Gaga

6. What Is It- Baby Bash

7. Not Afraid- Eminem

8. Who Let The Frog Out- Crazy Frog

9. You Raise Me Up- Josh Groban

10.Your Love Is My Drug- KE$HA


Anyways Hope You Enjoyed the new song... its kinda just a past rant to a buddy made into a song...


xoxoxo shay <3

Sorry? :(

I dont Know How many times I can apollogize.
Now we both are miserable and i feel horrible.
Maybe its better if i dont come on wednesday I should just stay at home off the computer and away from communication where i belong so i can stop fucking things up.

Just speak up damnit. You know me. i would NEVER intentionally hurt you fuck. :(
Honestly I can never be happy without fucking something up, without hurting someone else. I till im just going to give up on it. Its only fucking me over, Hurting you and pissing off him because i refuse to quit smoking weed....

Im actually legit miserable now.
I cant text and and apollogize because you have no minutes, See its really just not my weekend... everything has gone horribly wrong. now i fuck things up with you too. We normally talk till teh very last minute.. when have we ever ended like this..

Alrite well im going for a shower now
Later


Have fun
Bye...



IVE NEVER SEEN THAT.... :(
Im sorry, over and over and over again...

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Its monday and even though its a holiday i still have to post my list of songs...

1. California Girls- Katy Perry Ft. Snoop Dog

2.Your A Jerk- New Boys

3.OMG-Usher

4.Perfect- Hedley

5.Second Go- LIGHTS

6.Fork In The Road- The Latency

7. What If- original( recording)

8. Finger Print- Charice

9.The Things People Do- Sharon Nutzati

10.Wild Horses- Natasha Bedingfield

So thats it for this past weekend... everything went horribly :(

Happy May 24 everyone :) hope you all had epic celebrations :D

xoxoxo shay

C'est La Vie.!

Things Like that happen. but the thing is to learn from it. Honestly it bothers me that you are letting it get you down im sure this girl is far more amazing than me and is better for you. So Enjoy it. Take The Time take all those things we wouldve done and do them. Im not sure if it will be awkward but if it is then so be it. honestly. Gah..... why do you have to let this bother you.

You know how i feel with you holding things in -_-


not much i can do now. you wont talk about it so... blargh.....


so its after 12:00 so it counts as monday the weekly list of songs........ There May be a song or two still on repeat because they are that amazing BTW :P

1)Teeth- Lady Gaga

2)Breakeven- The Script

3)S.E.X- Nickelback

4)Pyramid- Charice Ft Iyaz

5)Solo- Iyaz

6)Meteor Shower- Owl City

7)True Colors- Glee Cover

8)Your a Jerk- New Boyz

9)I Can Transform Ya- Chris Brown

10)I Believe- Yolanda Adams( Honey Soundtrack)


so thats pretty much it. got stitches today but ill live.. bye


xoxox shay

Getting Fucked

Getting Fucked Over Never Feels Very Nice,
This will not be a rant, nor will it be a thoughtful note
or even a nice song ive wrote, there will be no photos and
there will be no smiles.

So im a dedicated athlete, track means everything to me
and no matter what happens i do it. Injury? screw it i love my track
i love the rush...... now i just want to strangle any track runner.

First meet
They have neither of my events
i dont get signed up for my relay
and i get signed up for a 60 andd 400m which i dont want..
whatever i live and do them.

Second meet
Spenny cannot attend,
Im injured
my team quits
I dont get signed up for my 200m
I Miss dericks event


Third Meet.
WAIT THERE IS NO FUCKING THIRD MEET FOR ME
for weeks ive been training to run at this meet.
its going to be the best
because both spenny and Derick will be ther
i have all 3 of my events
100m,200,4x100m relay
AND SHE DOESNT FUCKING REGISTER ME
why because i missed 3 practices when i was sick
WHOOPTY FUCKING SHIT!!!!


so now i miss seeing derick
i miss al 3 of my events
i dont get to see spenny
spenny joined track to be able to spend time with me -_-
IM not pissed IM FURIOUS


how on earth could they do this,
track is my everything, its my life,
its just UGHHH!!!!!!!

k whatever their loss just ill never do track again.

xoxo shay

Fav Covers (:

Okay So Just Thought Id Finally Post A Page On My Fav Covers Of Songs And The Artists Page.. I Really Encourage That you Listen To Them They Are All Really Amazing.


Ally Rhodes
Jump Then Fall - Taylor Swift
http://www.youtube.com/user/allysmusic14#p/u/22/luwQLxbRhO8
Home- Chris Daughtry
http://www.youtube.com/user/allysmusic14#p/u/2/d7zQYnXECnQ

Alyssa Bernal
After Tonight- Justin Nozuka
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqoXAp8AosY&playnext_from=TL&videos=6nqlWqE9Qg0
Hey Soul Sister- Train
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-VoFbH8jTzE&feature=related
Down- Jay Sean
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yHCbJjN6GMA&feature=channel
Please Dont Leave Me- PINK
http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=hchsknights08#p/u/25/uaLjjWM0kh8
Say- John Mayer
http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=hchsknights08#p/u/31/0k6IQoiCwgE
No Scrubs- TLC
http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=hchsknights08#p/u/35/HXZDYyc30JY
Im Yours- Jason Mraz
http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=hchsknights08#p/u/40/dQz0U6LV-ME

Krista Nicole
Your Love Is My Drug- Kesha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDj3VsjulNo&playnext_from=TL&videos=_uzfkn1kjiE
Dont Forget- Demi Lovato
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ABnmv8GSR8&feature=channel

Megan And Liz
Breakeven- The Script
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IqpcBpq4A0Q

I could go on for a million years but those are just some amazing covers either for guitar playing or vocals or both.

enjoy


xoxo Shay

Newest Truth

Okay So heres the Newest truth. Its A very Very Very quick and to the point message.





Okay So maybe you did break my heart.





xoxoxo shay

Alissa, Me and the Stairs!

So It Has only been a few days since ive posted but so much has occured.




Alissa....
my hoe, my life and well apart from Spence . :D my everything!!!
She is smart, talented and beautiful yet shes so much fun to be around. I look up to her in every way and shape possible. she takes care of me she keeps me safe and she calms my ADHD brain :D (thats probably most important) she fully doesnt approve of many things I do but no matter what i know i can count on her to be there. She probably wont approve of me writing about her on here but i dont give damn im going to and shell love me. She makes me move my fat ass to do all kinds of shit i hear lectures that i dotn wanna hear and eat things i dont wanna eat but i do it. cuz she tells me. holy shit does she really ahve that big of an influence on my life? clearly i babysit and she joins we sneak off and succeed at just about everything we do. She makes me smile and Vise Versa. There has not been one time when I have not been able to make that hoe smile. ELECTRIC BEDS, CARNIVAL RIDES, PUKE, ALCOHOL, DRUGS AND CUTE AND FAT COPS. what do they all have in common? ALISSA..... shes here now and always will be I LOVE YOU HOE <3<3<3



Me....
Dear God
I really need a life. I can say that I am beginning to be more girly first it was my Hair I really cared about my hair then It was my clothes ... Everything HAD to match. Slowly over time it became more important to me to look my best. Now im with you its just its everything. I must have the hair, the outfit the make up, the accessories its all important to me now. I dislike gifts and you get one anyways -_- fully not happy about that but you know what. I love you so it's okay :) I'm sure i could do a little better at being a better girlfriend but im working on it. I really dont know what to say about myself its hard to talk about myself without going into ALL the negatives. (give me a little credit I tried)



Stairs ...
How much I dislike stairs.
So many ways to fall on them... up, down, left, right, slide, bump,face plant down, drunkly stumble and well oviously be pushed down on your ass and end up in the hospital -_-....
Well in my case at least....
It ruined my one month i was upset and worried all day. I couldnt talk to my girl :(
spent the day in the hospital and even worse didnt get any easter presents from anybody :( I HATE STAIRS.... with a passion. But there isnt much more I can say. Its really just not my weekend friday I thought it was going to be great but it just didnt turn out. More action shots and more shots from the shoot will be posted at later times.



xoxo shay shay <3

Photography

Each Of These are original photographs and I have recieved full permission to use them.... Just saying :p Hope you enjoy the show im not sure what the inspiration was for these but i like them. My favs out of the bunch :)


Speak Out Because The World Is Listening




When I Look At My Relfection Im Pleased... Are You?


I Refuse To Speak Any Evil.



Pure Dedication And thats where it gets you.. Success!!!



Baby I Love You.. You Are On My Mind At All Times. <3


xoxo Shay<3

March Break?

Somewhat defines my march break could go into more details maybe i will later <3

xoxo Shay

Resolutions Update

1)Quit Drinking
PSSSHT YEAH RIGHT
2) Have A Girls Night Once Every Two Weeks :P
Going Well , ive gon eon a few with alissa
3) Actually Pass A Course With Over 80%
yeah not quite there yet
4) Make Up All The Plans I Rejected
Ive only made up 2
5)Face My Past So I Can Accept The Future
Working on it i try and avoid it
6)Find Out Becky's Whole Name
DONE DONE AND DONE :D
7)Get Him Out Of My Life Completely
100% yeeeeeaaaaaah
8)Find a New Hobby
uh... i am loser
9)Record and Post A New Acoustic Cover Of A Song Once A Month
Ive done a couple.
10) Lose 10 lbs by march break
I DID IT :D

k so im a total loser and im a failure but its okay

xoxo shay

Alter Ego?

ALTER EGO


damn....

Lets have a rant about Alter Egos. Everyone has one no matter what they say. It can show people the kind of person you truly are or even the person you may want to be. Some are frightening where some are just crazy..

So why do we have alter egos?
Are we afriad of ourselves?
honestly i Dont get it, Its confusing to me why do we hide what we are. I know I do it when im with my family im such an innocent person Give me a beer or some shots and BAM! you see her. I know others too my darlings all have one damn its just so confusing.

You've heard Beyonce say Sasha is hers and she only comes out when a performance is to be done. Is there any way to have the alter come out all the time. To stop being afriad of who we are and just be it. Its just so frustrating that people cant just be themselves they have to hide... BE WHO YOU ARE AND BE PROUD. I am!!!!! you should too xD

Okay so I just realized this was totally pointless and it probably makes no sense but hahahahahaha whatever


xoxo Shay

The Good, The Bad, And The Ugly

So many things come in this climatic order for example Socializing,Teachers,Homework!!
Not but thats not what im talking about here im talking about Fat, Math and Retainers -_-

Fat.... its disgusting yet to some COUGH spence COUGH its amazing and if you dont like it your a "Meat Hater" There is so many things bad for you in fat. Calories for one jesus might as well ask for a big mac! Its the total ruin of a great diet.. Now im hungry :(
its found everywhere and I never cared before but i really do need to keep up with my new years resolution by losing some weight. i know you guys disagree but come on its Track and Soccer and I need it :P

Math...
DEAR GOD HELP ME I HATE MATH!!
numbers confuse me, my ex sits beside me on my other side is a smelly russian guy who smells me and tries to strip me :S i just hate math :( Then I get a ton of the homeowrk every damn day. like wtf Do you think i dont have a life.. I dont need anymore damn homework hell dont you know i have a night of teasing and being a distraction to do.... must you always get in the way.

and the ugly

RETAINERS... i despise retainers
or should i say instalisp. Its annoying and most of all disgusting looking i hate it.. Can it be anymore unattractive. I dont need anyhitng ruining what i try so hard to have.
Like come on ... im short. chubby and on top of it ive got a retainer.. ugh -_-


But yeah there you go :P now for my fav pic of the week :P



xoxoxo shay

Just Me

Alright So..... This Girl Defines Me I Love Her To Death:)

I Love My Guitar And I Love Playing it and singing along :D

And Im Just A Crazy MoFo Who Enjoys Tackling people falling and laughing and well um... being raped???? -_-... boys will pay for this!!
THATS ME LOVE ME HATE ME I DONT CARE!!!! :D


im in a good mood for not sleeping for 2 days..... :P


ShayShay

The Morning After

Whoever decided to drink into the point of oblivion was the smartest human being ever created. UNTIL THE MORNING AFTER!!

Everything you could possibly learn about a hangover is by experience. So many people have horror stories while the lucky bastards don't get them at all. Man do I ever have one right now ey Spence.

So what is the definition of a hangover? "A hangover or delayed alcohol induced headache describes the sum of unpleasant physiological effects following heavy consumption of alcoholic beverages."(Wikipedia)

Hell yes its unpleasant. I feel like shit and want to die. Its kinda funny the amount of times ive had hangovers and the first thing I do is i text My lovely Spence :D So what do i normally feel when im hungover? I get a killer headache, i get extremely sick,i cant bare to havee any lights on at all it feels like im a vampire and my god am i thirsty.

I dont even know why im writing about hangovers im just writing.So lets rack my brain <<<<< hahah i said Rack.. :P.... anyways lets try and think about last night
I went to party with alissa god i love that girl. We(when i say we i mean Irina and I) got smashed where alissa was the DD :) I walked for an hour and a half because it turned out to be my exes party :( alissa picks me up to take us to the bar to apollogize for not knowing. We mak the night so much better by going to the bar where we argue over olympics, have creepy weirdos stare at me and then we decided to do some karaoke... wow bad decision...
Songs?
1)Girls Just Wanna Have Fun ( Alissa, Irina and I)
2)My Dick (alissa and I)
3) i unno what irina did but it was some sorrta interpretive dancing hahahaha
4) shots ( the entire bar sang and did the shots that the song named it was epic)

Dear god it was a great night and i had You text me to make sure i ws okay :) to make sure not too many guys werehitting on me and jsut to overall tell me you loved me.
i also dont know how or when it happened hun and quite frankly its scary to me to but we'll work it out :D

<3
Shay Shay

I Love You?

It's something we hear on a daily basis although so many different contexts. Yet its so confusing and it mind fucks me everytime. How are you supposed to react when someones tells you they love you? there are so many differnt situations and they all have different replies like

A: Oh Ray, I Love You!
M: Love you babe night
S: well you know i'll always love you
B: Alright Well I Love You so dont do anything stupid i cant live without you.

How do I raact to these. I never know how afraid to react is just me. Hurt stays with you and then comes a bites you in the ass when you try and be emotional for once. My god i miss being in love i miss being reckless with saying I Love You! I know it hurts and I dont throw it around like a toy. Fuck Love. Is feels amazing but hurts so mch.

Tonight thanks to you Spence I got that tingle in my tummy :D and I knew things were going to be alright. Im glad ive made your birthday a great one :D From My long ass fb post to the phone call waking me u :P to our epi arguement about twilight(gosh do i ever love twilight) Im glad Ive got you as a friend!
So Im Going to say it
I'll Always Love You Too <


ShayShay <3

My Rant About Jewish People

okay so maybe this is a little bit pressured... ERIC :D but i think ill do a rant about jewish people considering my new bf is a jew. My amazing jew boy is clearly a jew one of hte girls i hate the most is a jew... Gosh I love and hate the jews.!!!!

Jewish Females and why i hate them...

1) They are all VERY selfish
2) they think they can run you
3) usually extremely hot
4)Always Get the guys
5) DUMB AS A FUCKING DOORKNOB
6) Spolied beyond belief
7) i think ill stop before i piss off becky

Male Jews and why they are amazing.....

1) They are usually very smart
2) They speak awesome languages
3) Tey almost all play guitar
4) They fall really hard
5) They are adorrable when their sorry
6) Nothing is too good for their Girl
7) yeah illl stop with this tooo

Top 10 Reasons Why My Jew Boy Is Better Then Your Jew
1) His Name is E.W.P.S :D thats awesome
2) He wears a kippa and its awesome(mines better)
3) He Has JEW JITSU powers
4) Hes extremely smart
5) He Helped me pass grade 9 science
6) He stays up late with me unlike pussys who go to sleep
7) We have a super cool language
8) He Can make me laugh by saying 2 simple words
9) We have epic stories from grandmas hosue
10) I LOVE HIM TO DEATH AND THIS POST IS ABOUT HIM BECAUSE HE HEARTS ME :D




k so thats basically it :P Hailey blargh.... Matt suck on that and ERIC I LOVE YOU :D
<3 Shay Shay

What Not to allow While In The Mood

just a slightly LARGE list of epic fails ive had with all past partners and friends that completely ruins the mood :P

• The Cell Phone goes off its your bfs best friend
• You kick your best friend in the head who happens to be at the end of your bed
• Someones arm or foot falls asleep
• OW RUG BURN ON MY CHEST
• Mom knocks on the door
• Dog Plays with a squeak toy on the bed next to you
• Thats my nose silly
• Rule # 1 Do not wear zippy sweaters
• Rule # 2 Guys dress shirts are hard to get off
• Itunes on shuffle.... DO YOU LIKE WAFFLES plays
• Chokes on own Gum
• Do not giggle it ruins everything
• Cousin Yells use a condom
• Dont Talk about your future goals after sex
• Never compare exes
• hair chemicals do not taste nice
• nibbling is fine.... do not latch on and kill like a mother fucker
• snapping bras is really uncomfortable
• Whats That Smell xD

K So just a list of some really funny mishaps and fails ive gone through.. Some you will not understand and the people who were apart of them... FAIL!!!

<3>

1)Quit Drinking
K so not sure thats happening anytime soon
2) Have A Girls Night Once Every Two Weeks :P
I had a pretty Awesome night with Alissa
3) Actually Pass A Course With Over 80%
HA Ha yeah okay its not happening
4) Make Up All The Plans I Rejected
working on it
5)Face My Past So I Can Accept The Future
Its going wekk
6)Find Out Becky's Whole Name
Oh My Gosh Completed :D but i cant tell shell kill me
7)Get Him Out Of My Life Completely
Ive moved on and im not single anymore
8)Find a New Hobby
Still a loser
9)Record and Post A New Acoustic Cover Of A Song Once A Month
Dont have the nerves
10) Lose 10 lbs by march break
ive lost 2 already :)

Untitled

To You it was so perfect,
To you it was jsut fine,
I never thought I'd Lose you,
I thought you'd always be mine,
How come I never noticed,
How come I couldn't see,
That Times had changed,
And you did too,
You grew away from me,
We Could've Worked it out,
We coudl've talked it through,
But you treated me so badly,
There was nothing else i could do,
I tried to tell you nicely,
I felt myself about to cry,
My heart tore to pieces,
As you Let out a gut wrenching sigh,
We hugged for the last time,
I never wanted to let go,
Finally I pulled myself away,
As I heard you object NO!
I held in my tears,
As i began to walk away,
When people asked what happened,
There was nothing I could say,
I wanted to be alone,
I didn't wanna talk,
So i went around the corner,
And took a little walk,
I decided to sit down,
As i felt my eyes go red,
I gazed my stare at the floor,
As my hands held my head,
The tears poured down my face
and still to this day do,
because all the thoughts on my mind,
they all lead back to you
I didn't wanna believe it,
Yet i know its true
that we are definately over
that you and i are through
And still I cant believe
That i am such a mess
Having you in my life
just causes me more stress,
So its time i let go
Let go of me and you
That way I can heal
and you should start soon too
Ive got another chance
With it im going to run
Not forget but learn from my past,
You are no longer my number one!

Stupid School

Alright So... Today Was the first day of my in school suspension. IT SUCKS ASS!!!
The entire day the girl causing it all was on my nerves she even went to the extent of kissing my ex. Wow why was I so Pissed... I Thought I was over him and dealing with it all..... Who knows maybe his actions The other day changed my mind... Hope not Im crushing on This really Hot Girl, Hopefully she notices me she was put in my group for civics today :)

New Years Resolutions

Alright So After The Whole Mess Yesterday I thought I'd try extremely hard to make this year a good one so here goes with my resolutions!

1)Quit Drinking

2) Have A Girls Night Once Every Two Weeks :P

3) Actually Pass A Course With Over 80%

4) Make Up All The Plans I Rejected

5)Face My Past So I Can Accept The Future

6)Find Out Becky's Whole Name

7)Get Him Out Of My Life Completely

8)Find a New Hobby

9)Record and Post A New Acoustic Cover Of A Song Once A Month

10) Lose 10 lbs by march break

Now Hopefully I Will Actually keep this up

Im Sorry

Becky Duong!
If There is anything I regret ever doing it was hurting you the way i did last night and today. I am sorry although words cannot describe how truly sorry I am. I can't Imagine how you found or or who it was from. However i know how much it would hurt me to get the same news about you. Im sitting here just wishing I could take it back, wishing I had kept my promise to you. I didnt and I cannot change the past but i can fix the future. I know I was STupid, I know I was wrong and you know what I r ead your blog about the night we spent on the phone. Im sorry I made you feeel terrible, Im sorry for it all maybe you should just stay away from me like i suggested in teh beginning. We've been through it all Love, Pain, Tears, Happiness, Drunken Nights, PUKE!, Snuggles,Heart Break.... Name it we've done it I just wanted to tell you im sorry.
Please Forgive me :(