I Love You?

It's something we hear on a daily basis although so many different contexts. Yet its so confusing and it mind fucks me everytime. How are you supposed to react when someones tells you they love you? there are so many differnt situations and they all have different replies like

A: Oh Ray, I Love You!
M: Love you babe night
S: well you know i'll always love you
B: Alright Well I Love You so dont do anything stupid i cant live without you.

How do I raact to these. I never know how afraid to react is just me. Hurt stays with you and then comes a bites you in the ass when you try and be emotional for once. My god i miss being in love i miss being reckless with saying I Love You! I know it hurts and I dont throw it around like a toy. Fuck Love. Is feels amazing but hurts so mch.

Tonight thanks to you Spence I got that tingle in my tummy :D and I knew things were going to be alright. Im glad ive made your birthday a great one :D From My long ass fb post to the phone call waking me u :P to our epi arguement about twilight(gosh do i ever love twilight) Im glad Ive got you as a friend!
So Im Going to say it
I'll Always Love You Too <


ShayShay <3

My Rant About Jewish People

okay so maybe this is a little bit pressured... ERIC :D but i think ill do a rant about jewish people considering my new bf is a jew. My amazing jew boy is clearly a jew one of hte girls i hate the most is a jew... Gosh I love and hate the jews.!!!!

Jewish Females and why i hate them...

1) They are all VERY selfish
2) they think they can run you
3) usually extremely hot
4)Always Get the guys
5) DUMB AS A FUCKING DOORKNOB
6) Spolied beyond belief
7) i think ill stop before i piss off becky

Male Jews and why they are amazing.....

1) They are usually very smart
2) They speak awesome languages
3) Tey almost all play guitar
4) They fall really hard
5) They are adorrable when their sorry
6) Nothing is too good for their Girl
7) yeah illl stop with this tooo

Top 10 Reasons Why My Jew Boy Is Better Then Your Jew
1) His Name is E.W.P.S :D thats awesome
2) He wears a kippa and its awesome(mines better)
3) He Has JEW JITSU powers
4) Hes extremely smart
5) He Helped me pass grade 9 science
6) He stays up late with me unlike pussys who go to sleep
7) We have a super cool language
8) He Can make me laugh by saying 2 simple words
9) We have epic stories from grandmas hosue
10) I LOVE HIM TO DEATH AND THIS POST IS ABOUT HIM BECAUSE HE HEARTS ME :D




k so thats basically it :P Hailey blargh.... Matt suck on that and ERIC I LOVE YOU :D
<3 Shay Shay

What Not to allow While In The Mood

just a slightly LARGE list of epic fails ive had with all past partners and friends that completely ruins the mood :P

• The Cell Phone goes off its your bfs best friend
• You kick your best friend in the head who happens to be at the end of your bed
• Someones arm or foot falls asleep
• OW RUG BURN ON MY CHEST
• Mom knocks on the door
• Dog Plays with a squeak toy on the bed next to you
• Thats my nose silly
• Rule # 1 Do not wear zippy sweaters
• Rule # 2 Guys dress shirts are hard to get off
• Itunes on shuffle.... DO YOU LIKE WAFFLES plays
• Chokes on own Gum
• Do not giggle it ruins everything
• Cousin Yells use a condom
• Dont Talk about your future goals after sex
• Never compare exes
• hair chemicals do not taste nice
• nibbling is fine.... do not latch on and kill like a mother fucker
• snapping bras is really uncomfortable
• Whats That Smell xD

K So just a list of some really funny mishaps and fails ive gone through.. Some you will not understand and the people who were apart of them... FAIL!!!

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1)Quit Drinking
K so not sure thats happening anytime soon
2) Have A Girls Night Once Every Two Weeks :P
I had a pretty Awesome night with Alissa
3) Actually Pass A Course With Over 80%
HA Ha yeah okay its not happening
4) Make Up All The Plans I Rejected
working on it
5)Face My Past So I Can Accept The Future
Its going wekk
6)Find Out Becky's Whole Name
Oh My Gosh Completed :D but i cant tell shell kill me
7)Get Him Out Of My Life Completely
Ive moved on and im not single anymore
8)Find a New Hobby
Still a loser
9)Record and Post A New Acoustic Cover Of A Song Once A Month
Dont have the nerves
10) Lose 10 lbs by march break
ive lost 2 already :)

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To You it was so perfect,
To you it was jsut fine,
I never thought I'd Lose you,
I thought you'd always be mine,
How come I never noticed,
How come I couldn't see,
That Times had changed,
And you did too,
You grew away from me,
We Could've Worked it out,
We coudl've talked it through,
But you treated me so badly,
There was nothing else i could do,
I tried to tell you nicely,
I felt myself about to cry,
My heart tore to pieces,
As you Let out a gut wrenching sigh,
We hugged for the last time,
I never wanted to let go,
Finally I pulled myself away,
As I heard you object NO!
I held in my tears,
As i began to walk away,
When people asked what happened,
There was nothing I could say,
I wanted to be alone,
I didn't wanna talk,
So i went around the corner,
And took a little walk,
I decided to sit down,
As i felt my eyes go red,
I gazed my stare at the floor,
As my hands held my head,
The tears poured down my face
and still to this day do,
because all the thoughts on my mind,
they all lead back to you
I didn't wanna believe it,
Yet i know its true
that we are definately over
that you and i are through
And still I cant believe
That i am such a mess
Having you in my life
just causes me more stress,
So its time i let go
Let go of me and you
That way I can heal
and you should start soon too
Ive got another chance
With it im going to run
Not forget but learn from my past,
You are no longer my number one!

Stupid School

Alright So... Today Was the first day of my in school suspension. IT SUCKS ASS!!!
The entire day the girl causing it all was on my nerves she even went to the extent of kissing my ex. Wow why was I so Pissed... I Thought I was over him and dealing with it all..... Who knows maybe his actions The other day changed my mind... Hope not Im crushing on This really Hot Girl, Hopefully she notices me she was put in my group for civics today :)

New Years Resolutions

Alright So After The Whole Mess Yesterday I thought I'd try extremely hard to make this year a good one so here goes with my resolutions!

1)Quit Drinking

2) Have A Girls Night Once Every Two Weeks :P

3) Actually Pass A Course With Over 80%

4) Make Up All The Plans I Rejected

5)Face My Past So I Can Accept The Future

6)Find Out Becky's Whole Name

7)Get Him Out Of My Life Completely

8)Find a New Hobby

9)Record and Post A New Acoustic Cover Of A Song Once A Month

10) Lose 10 lbs by march break

Now Hopefully I Will Actually keep this up

Im Sorry

Becky Duong!
If There is anything I regret ever doing it was hurting you the way i did last night and today. I am sorry although words cannot describe how truly sorry I am. I can't Imagine how you found or or who it was from. However i know how much it would hurt me to get the same news about you. Im sitting here just wishing I could take it back, wishing I had kept my promise to you. I didnt and I cannot change the past but i can fix the future. I know I was STupid, I know I was wrong and you know what I r ead your blog about the night we spent on the phone. Im sorry I made you feeel terrible, Im sorry for it all maybe you should just stay away from me like i suggested in teh beginning. We've been through it all Love, Pain, Tears, Happiness, Drunken Nights, PUKE!, Snuggles,Heart Break.... Name it we've done it I just wanted to tell you im sorry.
Please Forgive me :(