Newest Truth

Okay So heres the Newest truth. Its A very Very Very quick and to the point message.





Okay So maybe you did break my heart.





xoxoxo shay

Alissa, Me and the Stairs!

So It Has only been a few days since ive posted but so much has occured.




Alissa....
my hoe, my life and well apart from Spence . :D my everything!!!
She is smart, talented and beautiful yet shes so much fun to be around. I look up to her in every way and shape possible. she takes care of me she keeps me safe and she calms my ADHD brain :D (thats probably most important) she fully doesnt approve of many things I do but no matter what i know i can count on her to be there. She probably wont approve of me writing about her on here but i dont give damn im going to and shell love me. She makes me move my fat ass to do all kinds of shit i hear lectures that i dotn wanna hear and eat things i dont wanna eat but i do it. cuz she tells me. holy shit does she really ahve that big of an influence on my life? clearly i babysit and she joins we sneak off and succeed at just about everything we do. She makes me smile and Vise Versa. There has not been one time when I have not been able to make that hoe smile. ELECTRIC BEDS, CARNIVAL RIDES, PUKE, ALCOHOL, DRUGS AND CUTE AND FAT COPS. what do they all have in common? ALISSA..... shes here now and always will be I LOVE YOU HOE <3<3<3



Me....
Dear God
I really need a life. I can say that I am beginning to be more girly first it was my Hair I really cared about my hair then It was my clothes ... Everything HAD to match. Slowly over time it became more important to me to look my best. Now im with you its just its everything. I must have the hair, the outfit the make up, the accessories its all important to me now. I dislike gifts and you get one anyways -_- fully not happy about that but you know what. I love you so it's okay :) I'm sure i could do a little better at being a better girlfriend but im working on it. I really dont know what to say about myself its hard to talk about myself without going into ALL the negatives. (give me a little credit I tried)



Stairs ...
How much I dislike stairs.
So many ways to fall on them... up, down, left, right, slide, bump,face plant down, drunkly stumble and well oviously be pushed down on your ass and end up in the hospital -_-....
Well in my case at least....
It ruined my one month i was upset and worried all day. I couldnt talk to my girl :(
spent the day in the hospital and even worse didnt get any easter presents from anybody :( I HATE STAIRS.... with a passion. But there isnt much more I can say. Its really just not my weekend friday I thought it was going to be great but it just didnt turn out. More action shots and more shots from the shoot will be posted at later times.



xoxo shay shay <3

Photography

Each Of These are original photographs and I have recieved full permission to use them.... Just saying :p Hope you enjoy the show im not sure what the inspiration was for these but i like them. My favs out of the bunch :)


Speak Out Because The World Is Listening




When I Look At My Relfection Im Pleased... Are You?


I Refuse To Speak Any Evil.



Pure Dedication And thats where it gets you.. Success!!!



Baby I Love You.. You Are On My Mind At All Times. <3


xoxo Shay<3

March Break?

Somewhat defines my march break could go into more details maybe i will later <3

xoxo Shay

Resolutions Update

1)Quit Drinking
PSSSHT YEAH RIGHT
2) Have A Girls Night Once Every Two Weeks :P
Going Well , ive gon eon a few with alissa
3) Actually Pass A Course With Over 80%
yeah not quite there yet
4) Make Up All The Plans I Rejected
Ive only made up 2
5)Face My Past So I Can Accept The Future
Working on it i try and avoid it
6)Find Out Becky's Whole Name
DONE DONE AND DONE :D
7)Get Him Out Of My Life Completely
100% yeeeeeaaaaaah
8)Find a New Hobby
uh... i am loser
9)Record and Post A New Acoustic Cover Of A Song Once A Month
Ive done a couple.
10) Lose 10 lbs by march break
I DID IT :D

k so im a total loser and im a failure but its okay

xoxo shay

Alter Ego?

ALTER EGO


damn....

Lets have a rant about Alter Egos. Everyone has one no matter what they say. It can show people the kind of person you truly are or even the person you may want to be. Some are frightening where some are just crazy..

So why do we have alter egos?
Are we afriad of ourselves?
honestly i Dont get it, Its confusing to me why do we hide what we are. I know I do it when im with my family im such an innocent person Give me a beer or some shots and BAM! you see her. I know others too my darlings all have one damn its just so confusing.

You've heard Beyonce say Sasha is hers and she only comes out when a performance is to be done. Is there any way to have the alter come out all the time. To stop being afriad of who we are and just be it. Its just so frustrating that people cant just be themselves they have to hide... BE WHO YOU ARE AND BE PROUD. I am!!!!! you should too xD

Okay so I just realized this was totally pointless and it probably makes no sense but hahahahahaha whatever


xoxo Shay

The Good, The Bad, And The Ugly

So many things come in this climatic order for example Socializing,Teachers,Homework!!
Not but thats not what im talking about here im talking about Fat, Math and Retainers -_-

Fat.... its disgusting yet to some COUGH spence COUGH its amazing and if you dont like it your a "Meat Hater" There is so many things bad for you in fat. Calories for one jesus might as well ask for a big mac! Its the total ruin of a great diet.. Now im hungry :(
its found everywhere and I never cared before but i really do need to keep up with my new years resolution by losing some weight. i know you guys disagree but come on its Track and Soccer and I need it :P

Math...
DEAR GOD HELP ME I HATE MATH!!
numbers confuse me, my ex sits beside me on my other side is a smelly russian guy who smells me and tries to strip me :S i just hate math :( Then I get a ton of the homeowrk every damn day. like wtf Do you think i dont have a life.. I dont need anymore damn homework hell dont you know i have a night of teasing and being a distraction to do.... must you always get in the way.

and the ugly

RETAINERS... i despise retainers
or should i say instalisp. Its annoying and most of all disgusting looking i hate it.. Can it be anymore unattractive. I dont need anyhitng ruining what i try so hard to have.
Like come on ... im short. chubby and on top of it ive got a retainer.. ugh -_-


But yeah there you go :P now for my fav pic of the week :P



xoxoxo shay